I Live in Fear And Chaos

For decades, I held on to a lot of pain from my childhood, and as a result, I learned to live in fear and chaos. My adult life mirrored that chaos.

For a long time, I genuinely believed that my situation was unique and that others didn’t experience the same struggles I did. However, as I began to heal and share my story, so many people have reached out to ask for prayer and guidance on how I overcame certain challenges.

It has become so clear to me just how many individuals suffer in silence, carrying the weight of trauma from years past. They become trapped by their past, preventing them from fully living in the present or looking forward to the future.

Past hurts are a trap of constant grief when we are not healed properly. We rob ourselves of the ability to see all the beautiful blessings we are surrounded with. When was the last time you went on a walk and breathed deeply, or the last time you watched your kids play and laugh, or the last time you took time for yourself to love yourself? We throw ourselves deep into all the things of life to avoid the darkness within. That is not living! It's been busy. God has not called us to be busy, or live life chained to past hurts. Don't suffer in silence; God is already waiting to help you get free, and he has also sent people to walk with you. Vulnerability is powerful. Silence is oppressing.

Isaiah 53:7 NIV

He was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did not open his mouth; he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep, before its shearers are silent, so he did not open his mouth.